Slow down..

I thought i had it all.But she went away.
I lost that old job now.I'm doing okay.
I'm Falling in love, but It's falling apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.

set back.

So today i woke up and went to the bus stop.
The first bus driver is always cool.
But today the second driver was different.
He was a jerk.Fat guy.
Then I arrived at work.To realize that they
told me and 30 other kids to go up stairs.
So then we got laid off.I'm really said.
Nothing ever goes right..

Waking up to every morning.

Things have calmed down, but something doesn't feel right.
I've been listening to Archie Star and The Maine.
It's been eating me up inside.Do I really think I've found love?
Or do i just want a girlfriend for the sake of having one?
I am thinking of all the good couples in my life.
Jones and Ate Angelica.Irvin and Geralyn.
and think how lucky they are. and be like I want that.
Do I really know what I want?I want a women i can spend the rest of my life
with.Cause outter beauty goes away inner beauty always stay.
Personalities are forever.Maybe I just want someone so
I'm not alone anymore.Or maybe just someone I can tell anything
to.

"I never really wanted to fit in any place except your heart."

Can't get over it.

Oh it is love.

Get off my case.I can deal with it.

Everyday.

Gets worse.OMG i hate life.

fuck my life.

I fking hate my life.Freaking hate how everything in my life
falls apart.I hate how everything goes bad and everything is
so stressing.I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
fking pissed.Can't do anything right.

Monday october 3

Sup fooooooooooooooooods
Well i feel kinda bad cause
i didn't go to church yesterday.
I prayed God to forgive me.
Hope it's approved.
Well i woke up all alone today
like usual.Justin went on his
first day and Jordan went on
his Second day of work.Proud
of those kids.I have a feeling
something great is going to
happen.At least i hope.I'll
Talk to you kids later.

Tatay's Birthday/Camille's birthday/Sacramento

Sup Kids it's november, Shit how the time flies.
Today i woke up at 9.Irvin and I were playing
halo up late again.Wow i love that kid.I woke up
to my sister telling me to get ready to go to Sac.
It's fun over there but it gets slow once in a while
i said to myself.I haven't been there in a while so
i guess it would be fun.So my Cousin Justin flaked
on us.It was fine though.So when we arrived to Sac
we ate at Botan,a sushi place.Food was good but service
gets a C.Then we just went to our nanay's house.and chilled.
then we got bored and went to two shops downtown.
i bought two shirts for 25 bucks.Thats hella cheap.Then we
went to mochi for some frozen yogurt.and went back to the
house.that was around 6.Then I get a call from Jenn asking
where i was.and i remember i promised Camille to spend the
day with her.Sorry Camille if you read this.Anyways.After that
i just went to sleep.I don't know why..But i feel comfort in the rain.
I don't know why.We drove back and i played like 8 games of halo
with irvin before Jordan and Rea came in.And this leads me to right
now.I'm still kinda trying to find love.Balance my life.and find myself
in the process.and to my Kuya Leon.Good luck in the Service.I'll miss
you.Life has changed so much.Sometimes i could just pick apart the
pieces and put them together how i want it.But if God Puts you in it.
God will help you through it.I think my cousins should know that.

"Time helps you get through things.But when you get through things you wish the that time would have slowed down."